July has been an extremely odd month. I thought it would be my month to really get a hold of my healthy habits even with vacation, but each week has just felt a bit off. I just haven’t felt like myself.
I’ve stepped on the scale a few times recently, contemplated a variety of diets even though I know they just make me crazy (can we say a cookie cake that I ate part of this weekend, and ice cream which would be fine if I wasn’t feeling like I was in GORGE mode). I was supposed to be out of town at my once a year, end of July, writer get together, but I didn’t feel up to the trip. Feel like I’m coming back around some now, and I even attempted a run yesterday OUTSIDE (what was I thinking?), but I did it before I had any food in me (and in the heat) so it was mostly a brisk walk.
Instead of being out of town with writers I was all by myself while my husband went with his brother to his yearly anime convention up in Baltimore. So things here were quiet, but I wasn’t letting my brain really rest. I think last night and this morning I’ve finally let my brain quiet down a bit. I want to try and hold onto that; I want to carry that into this last week before I have to report back to campus. (Next week are lots of meetings, and then classes start on the 15th).
I will say one thing for contemplating this weekend – I think I’ve come to the conclusion that I want to get a treadmill for the house. Hubs and I have been going pretty solid to the gym for over a month, and we always gravitate to the treadmills. The really nice ones have come down in price, and if we get a fold-up one we have the space for it. It would streamline things for sure. As will having an office on the campus where I teach which might have a fridge in it – a place where I could keep my healthier snacks and/or possibly even lunch instead of going off campus.
Could it be that I can step into August with convenience at my fingertips? We all measure ease a bit different, but with ease comes comfort. Perhaps with comfort comes lasting change?