As a child, I was fascinated by Blackbeard, Edward Teach, the dread pirate, haunting the Graveyard of the Atlantic -yar-. I think this was long before I understand much about genetics, genealogy etc because I hoped somehow I could be related to Blackbeard, somehow by association I would be famous.
Is there something in all of us that makes us hope for a little bit of fame? I also liked to act out plays when I was a kid and for years thought I might actually try to go into acting. Who hasn’t practiced their Oscar acceptance speech? You haven’t? It is pretty funny so you should try it!
Maybe some of it, for me, was growing up in such a rural area where there just weren’t many people of national note. Sure we had a big sign up mentioned the home of Jim “Catfish” Hunter but I never saw his name on TV, so how was he famous?
My brushes with fame were so small, tiny parts in school plays, I met Wolfman Jack once when he came into the resturant where my mother was working. Someone had told me we might be somehow related to him. He was a nice burly man and I reveled in that for a while, but then I’d just go back to dreaming that I’d be the kid that Wayne Newton came to give a dog too . . . but wait, if that story is true, your other dog had to die. So . . . er maybe not? But supposedly he did own an “estate” (if you can call the old plantation homes that anymore) in the area of coastal carolina where I grew up. Rumors!
All this thought about “fame” is funny coming from me, I’m introverted and I’m a poet who published an online zine. What kind of fame would ever come of that?
Any is doubtful.
But, I don’t really crave the limelight anymore. Yet, I can’t help craving a little bit of recognition from time to time. A little poem here published. A little applause at a reading I give. Just the little bits. Hopefully they are enough to keep me moving along and creating, cause last night when I thought about the sheer number of unpublished poems I had, it seemed insurmountable. I guess I don’t think in book length projects well, yet, if I want any notable poetry recognition that is what it would be for — a full length book.
Why do I want the recognition? Mainly cause I’d like to teach people, but you have to have credibility for people to want you to teach them. Funny huh
Maybe Blackbeard could have taught me the best way to braid my hair. Yar Har Har