Well those who read my notes/blogs know that I’ve been struggling a bit this week with being an editor. While I love working on “Shape of a Box” and I’m very proud of it, I found that working on chapbooks (even outside of the craziness from yesterday) was very stressful and was taking away from my time to do my own writing and my work on the magazine.
So, I decided that I needed to go ahead and pull the plug on it now before I really got in over my head. I have such great readers over at “Shape of a Box” that everyone has been very supportive, thank you so much everyone.
Oh and I’ll do the 25 random things at some point. I did the 16 in the past but didn’t tag anyone so I’ll try to do that today. A 2 post day!
And now I feel SOO relieved
Guess being an editor is at the forefront of my mind right now and I wanted to come to my personal blog and just relax for a bit and maybe even vent but really I can’t. There are things that happen on the side of being an editor and publisher that just pain me but I can’t really discuss them because I’m not one to say harsh things about people. Being a writer and trying to get published are so difficult, so why make it more difficult by beating each other up? So I won’t relate some of the strange submissions and withdrawls of work (or lack of response) that I have received, but I’m just here to say–it makes me tired.
That being said, I still love helping other writers. It takes a great deal of time and is sapping a lot of my energy and creative effort. I’m wondering how long I’ll be able to mentally and financially afford it? But, I want to keep soldiering on. I’m taking my doldrums just as a bad day at the office. A day, at least today, that has gone by FAR too quickly. I need to take off my editor hat and clean up the kitchen oh and then maybe actually get a chance to finish some reading and write a poem of my own. Just maybe.
So my note for the day is to keep doing it. Even if you feel like giving up, just keep trying. I am giving myself at least a year to publish “Shape of a Box” and the same for the new chapbook series. I owe it, not only to myself, but to the writers who have taken the time to put work into my hands to publish. I’m there for you guys! Just had to do a small woe-is-me vent
Well, working past my normal stopping time yesterday proved to be a really bad idea. I ended up having trouble getting to sleep because I was over stimulated with planning the chapbook I’m publishing over at Folded Word and also thinking of the design for my storefront..well and tons of other things, all this knowing I had to get up early to go to the car dealership for maintenance..which is done and for which I am now poorer..sigh. Next week is one of the kitty cat maintenance visits. Where did January go?
And I never got around to cleaning today
Only going to make a short quick post cause I’m past my “work” stopping time and I’m exhausted!
Did the dusting and ditty kitty hairing of stuff, caught up on blogs/networking stuff and after spending a lot of time with some chapbooks I have one that I’m going to publish! Now the production process, but I don’t want to think about that until at least tomorrow. Whew. Hardest part about publishing? That everything I read so far was good . . . maybe I’ll post more about my developing aesthetic in the future.
Anyway, hope everyone else had a good writerly (or otherwise) day. I also sent one one set of 4 poems to a lit mag but I’m way behind on my own reading. Ah, I’m going to have to learn some serious balance.
It is kind of a strange thing being on the other side of the desk especially now that I’m also publishing chapbooks and not just my literary magazine. It has really reinforced to me how subjective and hard the business of publishing can be and just how much work it takes. I hope I can keep doing it, but if I have to get a regular job again at some point then I don’t know if I really can balance family life, my writing, work and being an editor/publisher.
So give editors a break you’d be surprised how much is involved if you haven’t done it before!
And on the other side, be professional, I won’t say more on that, but seriously be professional!
Hope everyone has a great week!
Over at Folded Word Press I am launching a chapbook series. This was a huge goal for me when I launched Folded Word so I’m very happy I can start taking submissions. Check it out!
After a lot of aggravation, that does not need to be recapped here, I was finally able to upload the video of my reading that was a portion of my graduation from the MFA program at Queens University of Charlotte.
I had a terrific two years and if you see me twitching in May because I’m not on campus anymore, you will know why
(on and as I was typing this up more issues came up so there will be TWO videos)
The actual reading (if you are here early it may still be processing so check back):