I knew that my mind-numbing job wasn’t the only reason I was having weight problems and eating issues, but I did think it was a huge portion of my weight problem. I, however, continue to have a problem w/ these “mini-binges.” They are always after, or associated w/ dinner. I hate trying to decide what to eat, to portion it out, to constantly think about food!!! Makes me feel like a crack addict, seriously.

I’m sitting here right now and know I had a reasonable dinner but then just started snacking. How do people do this? I’ve tried buying packaged food like Nutrisystem (earlier posts can show how bad that is!) and Jenny Craig–which went ok, but is atrociously expensive. Of course I have also done just about every book out there and Weight Watcher meetings, but none of them seem to get me completely into control. I am debating Weight Watchers again. Should I go down that road?

Had a good reading day today though and typed up my poetry edits. I just started reading some Janice Fuller and she is just making me feel completely drained, I want to do what she is doing!!! I am a narrative poet who wants so badly to be a lyrical poet!

Tomorrow is a new day. I think I might take my used books to the bookstore and do a trade-in, maybe that will make me feel better